slept at 4am last night just to finish watching the japanese drama i bought. fucking awesome story revolving around japanese high school students. so many eye candies! rawrrrrr i'm going to have a fit lol. it left me laughing in the beginning, and crying like a stupid mofo in the end T-T best of all, yamapi's in it! nyeheheheh!
so if miyavi's gonna be my perfect bad boy, then my perfect good boy will be P-chan! click HERE and you'll know why ^^ UWAAAAAA! i am such a flirt these days, i just gotta have them all XD
cock, i haven't studied for tomorrow's test. i haven't done the supplementary papers. i have been full of bullshit by talking/panicking so much and yet, no action. tomorrow, i will just sit there and CRY and stare at my maths test. T____T i just wasted my holidays so bad, SO BAD.
(how dare i still think of buying myself a hoodie at this point of time?!)
20060622
can't i understand? you're already dead.
today on my way to school, i was blaring the music loudly into my ears, and i started to think a lot as i walked along the busy roads. i started to wonder what might happen to me since i can't hear anything else besides the music. then i got paranoid because i kept thinking that there would be a car that would just turn around the corner and knock me down.
and i got scared; i just kept thinking that i would get killed by a car if i didn't look out.
what if i died? damn i got really, REALLY upset as i thought about it more and more because if i died, i wouldn't be able to glomp my daily dosages of MIYAVI.
:D
in the end, i got too fucking paranoid that i switched off my mp3. i am going bucking fananas, okay.
20060621
i love you baby, i need you baby, is it a pop'n'roll?
yerrr! i was busy spamming my LJ instead XD i have been too high lately, BUT! i haven't been taking any coffee nor sugar. it's wierd, cause these are the two things that i can't live without to keep me going (:
hmm, i wonder what the hell am i doing because i haven't touched anything that is tested on the first week. and it's not like i studied much on my week 2 subjects. i merely flipped through geog, am halfway done through history, and my bio is just shaky. my top piority for now? MATHS. but hey, i always lie when i say 'top piority' XD
and i was thinking about how i plan to study japanese all the way (no matter what it takes) to get me a JLPT 3 cert, and then work my way up to the JLPT 2 cert so that i can get myself a job in which i can get stationed in japan. a tourguide there to the foreigners maybe, that would be really nice (: (but a tourguide is not my dream job though) gahhh, i feel like maybe it's the only thing that i feel driven towards to and it's one of the things so far that i really like doing. prolly by that time though, i would be around 20 if i manage to pass all the levels with one try. if i fail and it takes me more than one try to pass a level then maybe i would be 23 (10 years XD). so bloody long! i wonder if what i just said would still be authentic then.
being the lousy fuck i am at japanese, *sulk* i'm actually proud that i've finally finished the essay after 4 hours! XD and i shall reward myself with YAMAPI! <3 oh, miyavi also. must stay loyal x)
okay so i haven't got to the whole point of this entry, that is: i'm in desperate need of money.
20060618
when cute meets rock
okay, i was cranky in the last post. & if there are problems in viewing the pics in the last entry, repaste the url into a new window. i swear it works. i've tried it 392458729 times.
some people should stop thinking that there's a resemblence between miyavi and aoi from gazette. i don't see anything alike about them besides they're guitarists and the piercings. (but in my personal opinion, i get a feeling that aoi's trying to be like meev. but sadly, it doesn't work for me.) no one can ever be like him. quote his tattoo, he is the one and only, in heaven and on earth. (though i thought that kanon from An Cafe kinda resembled him based on looks in videos, but after a while, they look different.) and An Cafe! ferrking cute Oshare Kei jrock group lah.
so it is set, i will add a middle name when i'm allowed to and get a lip piercing when i'm 18. YUSS! XD actually one of my online japanese friend got her tongue and naval pierced. cool but the whole process is like, OW.
20060617
take it away
Incidentally, I just spotted an article on Singapore's sub-urban youth culture in today's newspaper.
and then there's all these talks and pictures about cosplaying, gothic lolitas and visual kei yada yada being the fad right now. damn right i was about how these japanese underground youth cultures are growing increasing popular. AND, i see Alice Nine's name so often in the article. Funny how so many people look up to them as role models for VK. Gawd, they're mild. (not a bad thing, i like them, but it seems like Alice Nine promoted alot and got many people into this. but i don't hear much about Dir en grey, Moi dix Mois, Luna Sea, Malice Mizer and X japan huh.) and then all that talk about how youths like to break away from mainstream and find their identity by dressing up like that and not following the trend bullshit. bullshit.
Y'know, doesn't mean having messy/colourful-enough hair, lots of eyeliner and black clothes makes you damn VK. no. Neither does acting damn goth and depressing makes you VK. If people wanna follow the style, for heaven's sake, DO A BLOODY GOOD JOB AT IT AND SCARE PEOPLE.
dude, THIS, THIS and THIS are the REAL VK i'm talking about. anything lighter than that are just mild. so Alice Nine? think again if you think they're so damn cool and so damn VK. no offence, i love Alice Nine. (HIROTO! :3)
and yeah then there's all these noobs talking like they know VK and jrock so well. i'm going to shred that newspaper article, them bldyfckrssss.
20060616
and the spamming continues XD
Visual kei eh?Very in now huh. For more info, check out HERE and HERE.
Seems like it is been increasingly popular and many people think it is cool. And thus the growing fad in jrock bands. Well if you knew how visual kei first started out, I bet many people would be freaked out and scared off instead. When it first started out with X Japan followed closely by Dir en grey (has lost its VK-ness) and Malice Mizer (disbanded) just to name a few popular ones, I think many people would have thought that they were simply crazy. Their VK was the ultimate, ranging from goth, to evil, and to even feminine. People thought they were crazy transvestites if they were not familiar with the Japanese music scene and culture.
But it seems, I noticed, that the more recently formed bands are also following in the same footsteps, however they are becoming milder. Their appearance do not scream outrageous like they used to, but are just fanciful enough. I am not slamming any bands here, I love them all, but I prefer the good old taste of Visual kei. I admit that I am not too big a fan of the totally out of the world style like X japan and Malice Mizer had, it is a bit too much to take for me (must have spent hours on their looks I admire the effort) but over the years in a span of about 7 or 8, it is been mellowing down to something that, I do not know how to explain really. Rawr I make no sense, so I shall stop.
I think that Rodeo, the music video of Due le quartz, is like the coolest video ever done (: All that spinning around gives me dizziness, and it is like the whole video is on drugs or something. Now that is the real meaning of the VK scene, the underground music culture of Japan. (though I think they are not as outrageous as the pioneers of VK lol) but it is still good, and I wanna share it, if you are willing to take a look (:
If you are interested to look, then please be patient and wait for a while for it to load. Rodeo loads pretty slow though, you might wanna pause it and let it load before watching the whole thing at one go. And these videos are best heard with your earphones plugged into the computer (: REALLY.
Due le quartz, what can I say, I love them to bits x) of course miyavi is the talented guitarist in there, and still is XD Dlq disbanded in 2002 though, which left me crying after watching their last live. Em maybe some people might not like the music, all these jrock needs some time to get adjusted listening to. I love every bit of this video, it is really well done. Apologise for the bad quality though, hope resizing helps (: do not get dizzy watching this lol.
And then you can compare them with Alice Nine. Very popular band now. Then you will know what I mean by the recent milder version of VK. Not one of them looks damn gothic or damn feminine, it is not a bad thing, I think they all look awesome and it is cool, but somehow I think that it is not as WOW compared to older times XD I feel kinda sad over the fact that why indie bands start off with very strong visual appearance, and then start to mellow down into something more normal when they make it bigger and bigger. (fyi all of them here belong under an indie label company just to clear things) but somehow I feel that these bands should just keep their original look (:
Alice Nine is okay to me, and in terms of music they are more melodious than the usual hysterical screaming I listen to. This is the video of Velvet, which I think are the more catchier songs they have (: and I absolutely love the sparkles and glitters in the video. Makes the whole thing look so glam, but yet quite manufactured and packaged nicely, unlike the naturalness of Rodeo. Rodeo is something you will see very commonly in the streets of Japan.
Sorry for the uber long posts? I am like screwing up my page haha. If you can see the difference between the two videos, then yay me love you x) and as for a goodie I will give you Gazette! Em some of their songs are really nice, and some are just alright for me. This is a live performance of The Social Riot Machines, and I think they did a pretty good job at their DISORDER concert. That stage and those lightings are WICKED I tell you XD Kai is the cute drummer at the back haha. HE ALWAYS GETS KISSED BY MIYAVI ZOMFGWTFBBQ IM SO JEALOUS LOL. Anyway this is one HOT ROCKING performance, they are not bad yo. I love it when they swing side to side with the music (if you look closely). Ruki was not singing much here, he was just rapping. But still good anyways.
One last thing before I head to bed, MIYAVI IS BIG LOVE! HAH.
20060615
a little note to myself :D
i'm sorry, i lied in my last last last post. it's not the one and only time that i will display public fangirl obsessions here XD in fact, it will not end as long as i'm happy and i like it. so LIVE WITH IT SUCKERRRSSS XD
hmm, you know i have like, the shortest attention span imaginable, for like about 4 seconds. for the whole afternoon of 5 hours, i stared at the same sentence, and i still cannot make sense of it. i am so power lol. there goes my geography. it's okay, i will STUDY tonight. PROMISE. TONIGHT. XD
here's two more reasons to remind myself why am i so deeply obsessed. there's no one else who can rock and be such a dork at the same time. (: i totally love how he and his guitarists bounce around on stage with the music, it never fails to get me high :D you all can say that i have wierd taste in music but i don't care about bullshit, as long as i like it x) HE IS SO FUCKING HOT :X
FROM NOW ON I GIVE YOU THE PERMISSION TO IGNORE ME AND MY NONSENSE HAH.
a dose of esctasy makes the day better.
i am such a suckerrrr! HAH, HAH. i am pathetic, and i have nuuuu life! eat my shit people.
hmm, i have decided to fail my lang arts and chinese. no way i can study for chinese, and no way i will ever understand j&h no matter how many times i read it. i promise i will score better for my MOV. i will use precious time for glomping my obsession studying geog, brushing up history, and browsing through bio one last time. oh yah and maybe maths. & i'm not going to do the maths supplementary exercises, waste of time. i hope that i'm not one of the selected students to pass that up though.
my sleep cycle is so messed up now, i sleep way after midnight and wake up in the afternoon. this sucks, i am going to have a really big problem when school reopens. and then my eating cycle is screwed up too. i eat cereal for breakfast in the afternoon, and don't eat much for dinner, which means less than a meal a day. ZOMFG. i am unhealthy, and i am full of fats now, my muscles have gone all flabby wabby.
then again, if you don't mind entertainment, listening to a jrocker diss santa, you are obliged to scroll down. that is, IF YOU SHARE THE SAME HUMOUR FREQUENCY AS ME LOLOL.
this is miyavi (my ultimate love! HAHA) giving a christmas message. the video is taken on christmas '05 duh. and then he goes to ruin the christmas mood by saying that there's no santa and starts to insult santa XDDDD OMFG LOVEEEE. to help understand better, crap translations! :3
"zappi neto miteru kimi, soshite kimi, soshite kimi" (YOU, YOU AND YOU who are watching zappy net<- name of the show) "miyavi desu! *climbs on table* MIYAVI DESU! *climbs on table*" (i am miyavi/this is miyavi) "*stands up and his head gets cut off my camera and laughs to himself*" "haite ne chamu *fiddles around to find chair*" (not sure what he said, but yeah you get the rough idea that he's too tall to stand up and talk) "*takes off visor and does peace sign* !@#$%^blahblahblahwahwahwah!@@##$$%" (rough idea of what he said was something like, 'what im going to say on this time's christmas talk show is merry christmas blah blah blah.. santa blah blah..') "*screams* NEEEEEYOOOOO! *makes hair* NEEEEYOOOO!" (THERE ISN'T ONE! <- meaning there's no santa) "santa wa INE" (there's no santa) "inen da yo" (no santa) "de itakoto nan desu kedo mo" (can't hear what he said but its something like 'wait there's a santa') "santa-san iru desuyo ne. kimi no otto-san" (there's a santa. YOUR DAD) "*laughs* YUCHATTA! *spazzes around* YUCHATTA!" (i said it! :O i said it!) "hagena santa! kusai santa! usai santa! fshfjkskfsk!^%$#@ santa! .. etc" (BALD SANTA! SMELLY SANTA! something something and it carries on..) "uerhigk!@#$$%^%skfuedrsiasfhsk!@#$$%" (blah blah something something.. you might just get a happy miyavi present from santa.. lol) "*spits* PPPBBBFFFFPPPPTTT! KUSE! *laughs*" (self explainatory XD just laughing at what he said lol) "hai sonna kondo de, happi meri kurisumasu. miyavi deshita baibai *waves*" (right so until then, happy merry christmas, this is miyavi, byebye ^^")
OMG what cool christmas mood! i want santa to give miyavi to me as a christmas present LOL. okay i shaddap =x
20060613
so much for hyperness
i have lost faith in everyone.
EVERYONE.
/EDIT: on a sidenote, if i'm obsessed enough, i will make his name my middle name when i'm 18, serious. it's like a tattoo, a permanent mark of something temporary.
20060612
I AM HAPPILY MARRIED :D
you know, if you cannot stand public fangirlism or plain pathetic no-lifers that raves like a mad cow, i will suggest that you come back the next time i've updated, because this will be the one and only time ima display my obsession public here. okay nevermind and if you do scroll down, i will mellow it down for you, but please be prepared cause you know that hyperventilating is really hard to hold back right?
guess what. i'm now, yet AGAIN, once more an obsessive fangirl. and when that happens, i warn people, that i don't give a shit about anything else other than making my life revolve around my obsession. totally. ever. no. don't care. that's why i have been pretty much detached from people lately and missing in action. besides that, screw the maths question that took me 3 hours just to figure out my mistake and screw those bloody tests too.
i repeat,
I AM A (DANGEROUS) OBSESSIVE FANGIRL. (whatthefuck am i doing with my pathetic life?! ohmygaw it's in the middle of the nighttttt! yo, that rhymes yo, yo.)
actually shirleen can testify that if you need the proof XD she hasn't even seen me in my worst state yet mwaha. i bite :3
I AM IN LOVE WITH MIYAVI! *insert heart here* CAUSE THERE'S NO OTHER JROCKER THAT'S SO HARDCORE AND CAN YET BE SUCH A SPASTIC DORK AT THE SAME TIME. HE IS ABSOLUTELY MY PERFECT BAD BOY THAT ROCKS. ROCKS HARD. :3 CHUUUU~
i can prove it.
Here he is, a video of him giving a message to his fans. Okay, he was TRYING to give a decent video. But with all that talking to himself, laughing at his own jokes, playing around with the workers, slapping tables and running around, it is anything but normal XD
HOW CAN YOU RESIST SUCH CUTENESS FROM A ROCKER? *INSERT MORE HEARTS HERE* HE IS THE KING OF RANDOMNESS I SWEAR THERE IS NO ONE ELSE THAT IS AS RANDOM AS HIM, TALKING ABOUT WEIRD STUFF THAT HAS NO LINK LOLOL.
ZOMFG I LOVE THE PART WHERE HE GOES CRAZY AND STARTS TO WAVE HIS ARMS AROUND AND THEN SLAPS HIS PAPER OFF THE TABLE AND ONTO THE FLOOR AND PICKS IT UP AND ACTS LIKE NOTHING HAPPENED. AND THEN THERE'S THIS CUTE AND WIERD THING HE DOES AT THE END XD LOVEEEEEE *INSERT 298753829375 HEARTS HERE!*
oh the love, i have found inspiration to study hard for my japanese again (: ahhhhhh.
Oh did I mention that he has serious emotion mood swing thingys? X) I HAVE FOUND A NEW LOVE! *big heart lmao*
In Japan, King Kong can only be prepared by chefs specially trained and certified by the government!
Apples are covered with a thin layer of King Kong.
King Kong can remain conscious for fifteen to twenty seconds after being decapitated!
Birds do not sleep in King Kong, though they may rest in it from time to time.
King Kong has a bifurcated penis.
There are 336 dimples on King Kong.
If you lace King Kong from the inside to the outside, the fit will be snugger around your big toe.
Edinburgh imports three thousand kilograms of King Kong every year!
During World War II, Americans tried to train King Kong to drop bombs!
King Kong can squeeze its entire body through a hole the size of its beak!
WTF POINT 5?! OMFG HAHAHAHAHAHA.
okay, enough amusement for today 8D
20060604
if it is a sin to have a thing for your relative
just came back from a wedding dinner (: oh man at last! a wedding dinner in which i can finally recognise familiar faces x) isn't as boring as the others that i used to go to where i was like the only teenager at the table. and omg omg omg, after being to this wedding dinner, i so feel like getting married. XD
i can picture myself getting married at: a) chjimes b) sentosa island resort c) whatever beach there is d) in japan! e) at the church f) ALL OF THE ABOVE! :D
and then after i get married, i shall stay at home and continue watching tv, and leave my husband to struggle with the (annoying) crying baby while i feed on chips (: and so i leave him to feed the gruel to the baby, and to change his/her stinky diapers. ah, babies are not my thing XD
okay back to where i drifted off, oh man i have a thing for one of my relatives! is it a sin?! lol, i HOPE it's a crush? oh no then i'll be abnormal. i have a hot relative, i don't know how he's related to me but he's my type x) cute, funny, spastic, yet charming and a family guy, okay he looks a bit dangerous too. highly reminds me of this someone. AND after the dinner when he was leaving, he waved to the people at my table, with this sachet stuck on his fingers. (it's a sachet containing chocolates, they're gifts from the bride and groom and everyone has one) oh man he looked like a dork but yet he was soooo cute! my mom always confuses him with his brother, but he'll always smile and say that it's the wrong name XD he has a really nice smile too. man if only he wasn't my relative lol.
ah and i seem to have forgotten what else i wanted to write about XD damn. oh yes, i shouldn't be so fickle, i should just keep my eyes on one person HAHAHA XD blah, if i had a wedding, i want it to be DAMN UNIQUE AND CRAZY LOL. now i can forget about revising my history and just concentrate on dreaming about my wedding HAHA.
ah shucks, vball training tomorrow, then maths remedial :
20060602
rather mediocre
yesterday i had volleyball camp! (: wasnt too bad, wasn't particularly crazy and exciting, but i had fun. yanting took over the job since requested by kelly to take loads of pictures during the camp as she couldn't make it lol. okay wait, i need to stop calling this a camp, it is an OVERNIGHT STAY IN SCHOOL XD
first went for a morning talk on our pdps at nine, and i totally didn't know that it was a formal thing, so i just went in my pe shirt and shorts looking underdressed x) damn, too bad eastina wasn't there, o she would have nosebled throughout the lecture mwaha (:
after that me, michelle, yanting, yixian, daphne, zhenyi, xinzhi and jonathan went to siglap to have lunch. we were really looking like a bunch of dumbos when we asked this guy from chaichee to take a group pic of us in front of kfc. (hahaha like wtf) hmm, then i can't really remember the things we did, played a bit of vball while waiting for people to come.
then starting off, we played some wet games. the more funny games i think were the one where two people are supposed to stand on a piece of paper and keeping folding the paper smaller and smaller. i totally laughed at mich and xinzhi 'cause they looked uber funny. but hey, at least they could stand on a really small piece of paper unlike me lmao; and the other game where one partner gets blind folded and the other leads him/her around to get bottles from the floor. lol i partnered keith but he has like a really low voice and among all the other girls screaming and shouting i could barely hear him lol. but at least i got a bottle? mich (the SUPER LUCKY one) got lihao, and he totally led her off the netball court, that poor thing getting bullied lol. but the forfeit in the end was a nice show to watch haha XD
then we slacked around before having a friendly game of vball, and i screwed up clearly. i can never play under competition-like environments, i rather play for fun and go totally crazy x) and lihao was trying to explain to me the positioning of the game. i had NO IDEA it was so complicated can. we were totally like, 'HUH? STILL CAN'T GET IT,' after he explained a whole chunk lolol. nevermind, i will get mr fung to explain to me one day XD
then there was the barbeque and games of vball after dinner. me, yanting and yixian were trying to act damn towner and retarded while playing vball haha, and even challenged xinzhi and lihao to a game of soccer? which like DUH we obviously lost in 25 seconds, and had to do a forfeit of duck waddling around mr fung and the others lol. and then there was more spazzing while playing vball x) there was the phrase of the night, "oh my keith!" and "GO charlene!" XDDDD bwahaha.
had nightwalk later, and i paired with yanting to do it. it was pretty scary, cause mr fung off all the lights in the school and it was freaking dark. me and yanting even sang dhs and tj's school song to keep our minds off from imaginating stuffs XD but then we still finished it safe and sound lah (: but daphne heard some tick-tocking sounds that she wasn't supposed to hear, man does it give me the goosebumps lol. mr fung also told us more wierd stuffs happening in tj that i never knew off. creepy but interesting.
after a shower, we all settled down in the gym to watch dvds, but i had gastrics so i decided to sleep instead. it was bloody cold in there so i was only like half sleeping most of the time. maybe like until five plus in the morning, everyone else was sleeping except me, jonathan and michelle, watching ju-on. but soon they slept also and only me left eeeeeeee. it's freaky.
hmm, then we went to mcDonald's for breakfast before heading back to school again. bah, supposed to play vball but then i was too tired, (so sorry yanting) on my way back, i was just dozing off at the bus stop, damn i must have been looking so dumb there lol. came back around 10, then slept for about 7 hours till 6 hehe.
rahhhhh so that's about it? i so need to get started on my homework and revision :
superman likes peanuts :D
for a moment, i felt like there was a possibility that my heart could go to someone else.
&!VODKA&IRONY
{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT & somedays on mute mode
&!SLIP'N'SLIDE
A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D
Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good.
With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings.
Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality.
Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life.
Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.
Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.
